I just wonder when it will go away?
If I look into my daughter's eyes too long, I am brought to tears, just as I have been every time I recall the sonographer saying, "It's a girl" during my last half of pregnancy.
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely ADORE being the mom of three amazing sons! They are my everything, even if they take everything outta me sometimes! ;)
But a daughter? I just didn't expect it to ever happen, and now that it has, I can't believe the blessing!
Anyone who has known me for a while, knows I have all my old toys sitting in storage. Whenever a little girl would come visit the boys, I'd pull out my Sylvanian family doll house and let them indulge in the miniature stuff. If I thought about it too long, tears would spring knowing that I may have to wait until grandchildren to pass it down (uh...a long, long, LONG time from now) but still.
I can't even look at the tiny little baby without the little girl inside of me tugging at my heart, daydreaming about playing together some day.
I just wonder when this instant lump in my throat as I look upon my child, will go away?
I hope never. I fear it will and I will get stuck in monotony.
But I'll pray.