Wednesday, January 18, 2017

There is no fear in love.

This verse takes on multiple meanings for me.

When life topples my security, the first thing that is questioned is love. How about you? If I can just remember where love came from, then I have nothing to be afraid of, I have no fear.
It's in the remembering.
Every step, every set back, every dark valley--Love was there. Is there. I just need to remember that.


Friday, January 13, 2017

Absorbing all the Hurts

I just couldn't form a post today. My heart is all a muddle. But I got this out. Something about a picture helps me find the words.


Wednesday, January 4, 2017

My Publishing Story: A Journey of Perfect Timing


"Wait for the LORD
Be strong and let your heart take courage;            
Yes, wait for the LORD." Psalm 27:14


I wrote a story five years ago. My footing was finally solid on how to write, after a couple ACFW conferences and connecting with my bestie writing sister, Ashley. So in 2012, I poured my heart out within the parameters of what I'd learned.

The story I wrote stemmed from my heritage. From a very young age, I've been inspired by my grandfather. He was the son of a Greek coal miner who came over from Greece in the 1910's. My grandfather always had wonderful stories to tell--he stirred up my intrigue for WWII era as he was a Purple Heart recipient (twice), and spoke of freeing concentration camps and invading Hitler's homes; my grandfather lived a rags to riches legacy, having been born in a tent in a coal town, and then becoming a successful home and commercial builder--I declared I'd be an architect at age eleven...even majoring in Landscape Architecture in college.

Papou was one of my greatest heroes. And my novel was a tribute to him, to my Greek roots, to an American legacy.

My great grandfather, born in 1884 and
immigrated to Utah in 1910's.
So, at ACFW 2012, I took my novel to conference with more confidence than I had before. This story caught the attention of an agent-- and I signed a contract with the Steve Laube Agency in November of that year. That was amazing...I chuckle now because the name of the room that I interviewed with Tamela was the "McKee" room--the last name of my heroine. A sign? Maybe. When she sent my story out for all publishers to see that next month, I thought my time for that book was just around the corner.

And...

 Now it's 2017, and that story is under contract with a publisher as of Fall 2016.

What timing, right?

Why the heck did it take so long? Not for lack of trying. My agent and I took every possible measure.

Why did I get rejection after rejection, and write two other books in the wait?

What happened between then?

Only in looking back, do I see why I had to wait for this book. And when I look back, I realize just how much Timing is His and there's nothing I can do to speed it up or make it mine. All I can do is take courage, and wait.

I'll give you a quick recap of what happened between 2013--when the book was put in the proverbial drawer of unwanted manuscripts--and now, 2017, the year it will get published (um, after a few rewrites and edits--always learning...).

In looking back, this is what I see:

My Community was Built. I fell in love with my writer friendships. A bit dramatic? Maybe, but it's the truth. I connected with ladies who knew my heart as a writer, and allowed me into their lives in an authentic, Christ-loving way. I found hope in the writing journey because my friends held my hands and rubbed my back when all seemed lost. And in this, I grew not as a writer, but as a heart. My heart became soft for the needs of others and the value of authenticity in this short, precious life.




There was a Pride Monster, and He needed to kill it. Oh, Lord, if ever there was a pride monster, it was me. My gut reaction in every rejection, every criticism, every other person's success was a measurement against them according to me. Yuck. Do you know what the best way to kill a Pride Monster? Starve it. Even though I had my sweet friends and my agent encouraging me along the way, my heart was set on publication and I was not getting that. I wanted it so badly that I turned ugly when it seemed to slip through my fingers with every rejection. And I spiraled and I came up for air to those authentic friendships speaking Truth in love. God knew what He was doing when He built my community, and He knew He would use it to lift me up and tear down my ugly.


The Darkest Valley Was Ahead. Everything stood still in 2014. My personal crisis gave me little room for any true focus on my writing success. If anything, it made the effort seem petty. When you go through your days wondering if you'll make it to the next morning without a complete mental breakdown, you can't really dream. My dream in those moments was to crawl out of my skin and run away. This was not about my writing, this was about God's faithfulness to someone who was losing faith--in the person she loved, in the life she constructed, in the heart that was broken. Looking back (I did climb up and out of this valley), I needed this valley walk (or crawl) to happen when it did--without a book on the shelf, without confidence in something that I had accomplished. I needed brokenness to become stronger and know that my strength has nothing to do with me.

There are several other moments and signs that I see as I look back, but I'm not going for the longest blog post of 2017, but I do want to share two sweet confirmations that the timing really is His.

First, I got a book contract! You know this, but, the contract came at a time when I had grown peaceful in the journey--the pride monster lay slain, and I picked up a pen and took an opportunity. My Oklahoma Land Run book with Love Inspired Historical won the Manuscript Matchmakers contest...and WAS coming out in Spring 2018.

I had secretly told those closest to me, that it would've been nice for it to come out in September instead...just because that's when the book opens--September, 1893--the historical date of the Land Run.

So, what happens after I turn in my complete book a few days before its deadline? My editor tells me they bumped up my date to September of 2017. And I am sure, for them, it had nothing to do with the history, but for me, it was everything to do with the history--and His timing. Look for my debut novel, The Outlaw's Second Chance this September!

There's more...

My second contract came in! And this was a wonderful surprise. My agent and I had found out last spring that a new series was being launched based on geographical places around the U.S. I immediately thought of my Coal country story. So, I put together a proposal for a book I'd written long ago...and got a contract with Barbour this Fall for my novel, My Heart Belongs in Castle Gate, Utah.

But, the timing? November 2017 is my release.

God's Timing in its finest...The book comes out during the centennial year of my grandfather's birth. He was born in Dec. 1917 in Carbon County, Utah. My hero and my inspiration for this very book.

I just can't stop smiling at the chance to honor my late grandfather with a story written by his third generation Greek American granddaughter who was inspired by his roots grown a century ago.

If only he could be here now. But I know he's smiling, too.

A century.

It took a CENTURY.

Only by God's grace, and His perfect timing.
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Tuesday, January 3, 2017

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Sunday, January 1, 2017