Tuesday, July 20, 2010

From the Spout of a Wanna-Be

I am extremely jittery tonight. Every time I get on my computer, I am reminded that I will spend a day as an "unpublished author" among professionals who make a living in my dream land: The Writing World. 
Let's face it, I have been a stay-at-home mom for the past eight years, and the last professional conference I went to, I was a shiny-faced, almost graduating fifth year college student trying desperately to get my career rolling...and it was in Landscape Architecture, not writing!
Just the thought of my inability to get a thought out of my mouth( as opposed to typing it concisely in black and white), sends me into a frenzy of self-doubt and yelling, "what the heck was I thinking??" in the back of my head!
It wouldn't be so bad if I was just going to sit in on some lectures and listen to great speakers...but I boldly signed up to talk to an editor and agent. Do I know what special writer's jargon I need? Honestly doubt it! All I can say is, I will try and look at this as a lesson in humility!
So, if you have ever had a dream where you walk into a classroom completely unprepared for a final, or had forgot that you signed up for the class UNTIL the final, you will have a snippit of an idea of how I feel right now!

1 comment:

  1. Supamom, try not to be so hard on yourself. You have been doing the most important job for the past eight years! So you are a bit of a fish out of water right now, you will soon be confident with your choice. At least you are taking the first step! Keep taking steps until you succeed! And you will!

    Mama Hen