Being Not Okay

I so appreciate all the humor and optimism out there.I am thankful for the online community we’ve grown these years, catching us before hitting complete bottom in all this social distancing, in all this tragedy, in all this teetering hope.I am beyond grateful for science and data and technology for teaching, equipping, and sobering.

I am so thankful for the people who’ve taken this on like champs...making the most of it, being innovative, making this work and rocking it. You are being the good for some of us who are doing a crappy job of holding it together. For this girl doing a crappy job of holding it together.
I am not gonna lie. I’m not good with all this. I am not rocking it. 👈👈I just wanna put that here for those of you who are doing this Spring 2020 like me—you are not alone,  either. If you aren’t quite sure how to breathe right now, be right now, neither am I.

My enneagram number 4 is getting the best of me...making the worst of me? Maybe. But, as my spiral has lengthened this day, this sign on my wall has been nagging me.
I am starting to remember something else that I have grown besides social media over these years: The knowing that, in my 4-ness, I don’t really have to be ok. It’s not always something I can talk myself out of, but I know that at least there is always Someone, Some Word, some reminder that He will meet me and tip my chin up in my un-okayness. His Word will give me a clue on how to manage all this. If that’s my only hope, I need to be ok with that.

4’s like me, 6’s like me, friends like me—know that you aren’t alone. You have a friendly chat at your finger tips, you have a God who loves you. And together, we have this great big community on here for such a time as this. 💛 Thank God for that! #LoveGod #LovePeople #socialdistancing #enneagramfours