How long, oh God, will this last?
How long will we struggle through this trial?
And I pulled out my journal, and wrote a prayer, and you can see what I wrote:
And then, I responded to an email, and told a friend, "I just keep asking, how long?"
Yes, it was the cry of my heart this morning.
And I opened my study, the same study that I opened last time I posted about God speaking through it...and I went to the next section. And it lead me to this (which you will understand its significance further into my post):
"God's child who trusts His love possesses security in her salvation." -Beth Moore, Breaking Free
It gets better. This is the scripture it referenced:
New American Standard Bible (NASB)
Prayer for Help in Trouble.
For the choir director. A Psalm of David.
How long, O Lord? Will You forget me forever?
How long will You hide Your face from me?2
How long shall I take counsel in my soul,
Having sorrow in my heart all the day?
How long will my enemy be exalted over me?
Consider and answer me, O Lord my God;
Enlighten my eyes, or I will sleep the sleep of death,4
And my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
And my adversaries will rejoice when I am shaken.
But I have trusted in Your lovingkindness;
My heart shall rejoice in Your salvation.6
I will sing to the Lord,
Because He has dealt bountifully with me.
Oh HOLY FATHER!
Just yesterday, I pondered salvation. I wondered if, perhaps, God might be taking me on a journey in a whole new direction...perhaps there is no such thing as salvation at all?
Well, as I pondered, I suddenly grew aware of the bitterness of that. The pointlessness of life without my Savior. It was as if God shook me and woke me up from a dream.
How can He be so faithful? Before I started my study this morning, I decided to write down everything He has shown me these past months that prove His faithfulness. And you know what? The only reason I stumble, is because I fail to obey what He shows me!! Time and time again, God gives me truth, and time and time again, I forget.
He has dealt bountifully with me, and now it is up to me to sing and trust in His lovingkindness!