Can I really play the pregnancy card when it comes to emotions? I have just been one not so fun, stressed out, un-nice mama lately. I feel like I walk around in a haze of knowing what needs to get done, planning on doing it, and then getting completely off track! That is not exactly abnormal for my non-pregnancy self, but lately it has gotten under my skin and made me grumpy!
I feel like I have stepped backwards about 7 years, where I have one child home all the time, and don't know how to entertain him ALL day long! You'd think after raising 3 toddlers I'd have figured out some tricks. But alas, I am in the shoes of a frustrated SAHM having serious doubts that I am better for my son than full-time preschool...at least there he would be learning, interacting, and having structure all day long...Here, he gets bits and pieces of me, a couple of stories read, maybe a game played, but the rest of the time is mommy rushing around trying to get things done.
My biggest confession in this, is that sometimes I really don't want to sit down and "play". UGH! I wish I could redefine the role of SAHM in my head and realize that I am NOT the trick of all trades...that I am a loving, caring, ready-to-help mom, but not a preschool teacher, a psychologist, a day planner, a maid...the list goes on of the roles I must play, but am far from mastering.
I never understood the concept that weather changes moods...but after suffering through last winter, and now trying my darnedest to stay positive this winter, I think perhaps there is truth in the weather mood ring...how annoying! I keep quoting on of my favorite characters, Scarlett O'Hara, "Afterall, tomorrow is another day"...well it's tomorrow now, and I am disappointed in how much effort it takes to push me forward, but if I get off this computer right now, I might be able to redeem myself. ;)